Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Ruggedly Handsome

Oh so help me heavens, I went to a barre/pilates class yesterday. It seemed like a good idea at the time, doing all that moving and exercising and whatever.

What it really did was bring into stark relief how out of shape I am and how walking is for suckers. I am SO SORE TODAY OH MY GOD.

I'm still very much struggling through the idea of what I want to be when I grow up. It's a really weighty question. You would think I'd have a better idea, given how much schooling I've had and frankly, how much support I've had from my family and my friends.
That being said, I don't think I've ever really posed the question to them and seen how they would help. Or if they would help.


I think I want to be Richard Castle. I don't have a desire to be ruggedly handsome (I don't think there can be more than one Rick Castle), but the idea of being a writer is starting to call to me. I adore the idea of doing it everyday.
It's time for me to buckle down and give it a try.

Monday, October 14, 2013

I have been feeling wicked fatigued lately and unbelievably tingly and cannot, for the life of me, figure out why. I've had 1.25 cc of B12 in the last 10 days. In theory I should be bouncing off the freaking walls.
One thing I am doing is pooping like a maniac, which is never a bad thing.
I've made an appointment with my neurologist and I'm not thrilled about it. I hate having to go. She's a nice enough lady,'s hard to explain. I just hate feeling like an invalid. Most everyone in the waiting room is like, 107 and it makes me feel sooooo lame.

In the meantime I've been working with a career coach to try to fix my resume so I can get a better job. However, in the two phone calls we've had he's hit on some very important points. The main point is somewhat embarrassing.

I am 27 years old and I don't really have any idea what I want to be when I grow up.

I believe I've posed this thought before, but to have someone who I have only spoken to for a couple of hours find that out about me is...upsetting? Weird?
He's given me an exercise so I can work on my resume and I figure we'll jump back on a call in a week or so.

In the meantime, if you have any advice on how to figure out what to be when you grow up...feel free to share with the class.

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Getting More Help

Due to this breathing trouble, I called the doctor back and got some more steroids. Apparently the steroid inhaler and the steroid shot I had at the first appointment wasn't enough. These steroids, methylprednisolone, are hardcore.

I do not like them one bit. I'm unsteady, I shake and I'm unbelievably sweaty. Gross, but true. I'm so thankful that today is the last day. The first day (Friday) I had to take 6. SIX. That's a lot of pills that aren't coated and break if you get them out of the blister pack just wrong and taste funny.

I am off them now and this is an extraordinarily good thing.

Last week I went to some online webinars through These webinars were designed to jump-start our job hunt and whatnot. One was one social media, one was on networking and one was on interviewing. It was neat because there was the webinar and a live chat going on in a side window. I ended up connecting with a career coach and it looks like we might work together.

It's looking to be a useful connection.

I've been having headaches. I really would like for them to stop.